hopefully. in 12 hours, I will wake up. And not feel so much like shit. And not be crying. And I will have my own college web portal account thingy, with a school email (that i prob wont use except for scholarships) and yet another website/host thingy, as if i need one. And suposedly it will be awesome, though i always wonder what level of awesome as no one here knows html, or how to make links, well, link. cept me. i know.

crap. right now I feel like the worst most undeservingly alive-person who is...living. and no i don't want to explain. i just feel awful.

i dont even want to post this, it's shit...

oh well