Friday was a pretty big disaster for me and has left me in tears. I've been doing pretty well, and then today I just couldn't speak. I couldn't think. And I wondered why the hell I deserve being a team leader when I can't even speak to people. So right now I feel pretty inadequate.

we had to speak to rep's from another community college who want to start a similar program at their college. God I sounded so dumb.

I barely got my discussion posted for my Anthro class. I couldn't think well enough to answer the questions. Granted one of the questions was a little vague and misleading. But still...

And then W signed online and attempted a chat that of course just made me feel worse...because we haven't talked in 3 weeks, and I pretty much consider everything over between us. But there he was.

crap this is hard.

And I really hate being at home.

so there you go. my day.

~e