well, it seems a lot of my buddies lives are quite sad these days. :-( hugs to everyone...

I have little time to say everything on my mind, but well...

I'm pretty sure I had a miscarriage on Saturday. I felt a sudden really serious sharp pin-prick pain that afternoon that nearly brought me to the floor - well it would have if I hadn't been lying down already. It was so sharp I couldn't move, I laid there thinking I was dying. Within a half hour I was bleeding. The pain didn't stop for two days. I couldn't sleep cause I woke up in pain. For someone who rarely ever even gets mild cramps, it was horrific. It's so weird to think of it. I wouldn't have been any more than 4 weeks pregnant, so it would have been the size of a sesame seed, maybe a green chile seed.

All the swelling I had for three weeks is gone now too...

hmm...I don't know...

But Josh is happy that he's not going to be an uncle.

And I have way too much homework to do...

and i love love songs all the sudden, cause they make me think of him.

i'm such a dork
~e