I have called all of the psychiatrists that take medicaid in my area, and none are taking new patients. The only clinic I can go to can't see me till April 27th. I have no medication and am really starting to lose it. I broke down on the phone as the final psychiatrist told me he has no openings.

I'm not okay...and the system is really fucked up. I'm not so sure I will make it through this semester. I've been without medication for 4 months now, doing well I falsely thought, but I'm not sleeping. I'm not functioning. I'm not thinking clearly.

And I just realized what i feared is true...i lost two flash drives without realizing it. Not just one. What else have I lost without realizing it?

~e