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Sunlight on Earth

� Copyright 2006-2012
Sunday, Apr. 01, 2012 - 4:00 pm

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My boyfriend got a nasty virus on his computer today while doing homework. I was attempting to enjoy some time with him, but that is all but destroyed after he got beyond pissed, nearly killed one of his cats who merely knocked into some breakable shit he should not insist on keeping in a place cats can get to, and after screaming at the top of his abilities and slamming the bedroom door to shut his cat in the room, he smashed a book to pieces,and left me scared to speak a word. I'm sitting here startling each time he coughs, or moves...no matter what i do or say he will use it as an excuse to say I'm making it all worse and get violent again.

My psychiatrist filled my prescription but did not contact me, so I still need to find someone who can fill out transportation paperwork or I will be fully housebound again by July.

I need my homework done by midnight too, and that is equally destroyed. I need to quit and break up with him and accept my life as it was before. I never felt this much fear around another person, except for my dad.

I'm not okay with it. Or how he get o violent so quickly and so intensely.

It's not okay.

And I need to quit, somehow, and move on from everyone and everything...for my sanity and safety,


~e

=*= one day i'll fly away =*=

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