I am in the way, if I am home I am, and if my boyfriend has anything at all to do he can't take it, so he gets violent and clearly does not want me around. I would ask for a ride home but he is also drunk. So I'm in the living room. All because he has to clean his room for his mother who refused to make room for us last time we visited.

I did what could do with the really stupid ant research project. I have no idea how to type up a messed up research project. We have had 50 mph gusts for days, of course it would do that on the only days I have to do my research. I fed ants some seeds, that blew away. The ones that didn't were picked up by ants, who then got blown over 3 feet away. So I am left with nothing to report. I only had a half hour each day to watch ants, and they and the food got blown away by the winds.

I'm not happy that my final two weeks of college are fucked up by a pointless project that my instructor won't even help me with. I emailed him and he just said I had two weeks, which I did not because there are no ants where I live. So I asked my boyfriend, and he had four finals last week, and couldn't help me till this week, which got fucked over by wind.

My award I got last night is crumpled and ruined by cake. I wiped it off as best as I could, but it is gross.

My boyfriend is pissed because I am not helping him; the report of my project is due tomorrow, and I have to give a training before class.

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