After being without my laptop and looking at my lists of supposed friends on facebook on my phone, one of which unfriended me yesterday, ive decided to give up on trying and hoping to have real friends. Agoraphobics like me have no place in the world. I'
struggling with whether or not to go back to college. Whether or not to keep going in general. And without the hope that things will be better if i just keep hoping amd trying and doing...so if i just quit again altogether, maybe i can learn to enjoy the isolation this time around. I fail at socializing it seems. and sometimes you have to accept that some things and some people arent worth trying so hard for.

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