So much is blocking progress and possibility for the event. I have added person # 4 and now situation created by city to my list of roadblocks. We have the worst transportation here. Buses do not generally connect, and while they miss each other by a minute or so, they only run once an hour.

I'm exhausted from people, and I have a feeling that by the time the event happens I will no longer care or see it as positive. I will just want it to be over.

I feel tired and unhappy an d wonder why everyone has to make things so hard then lie and say its easy.

I feel deflated.

Fully.

And everyone in my town is inept. And no one is helping me, still.

I wish I could disappear on this project. I really do.

~e