Having a rough night emotionally. I need for my life to be better and much less lonely. I try sincerely, but I guess I suck at it. I tried to make today better, but I am depressed and even paper dragonflies didn't help much. I want to know what life is like without disabilities, and endless limitations and rules. I once had endless possibilities, despite my confinement.

I miss that.

I watch kids riding bikes in the park. I can't do that. I watch people going for walks. I can't do that.

I can't buy groceries without assistance. I can't do anything still, really. Not alone...so, being so alone despite knowing hundreds of people, my room is becoming my prison again. I think I am about to lose my mind for want of impossible things.

~e