I am ip at almost 3 am, with fitness class in 8 hours, because i am yet again in severe pain, back and abdomen...the cause of which i have no clue. It is beyond cramps, it hurts so much it goes physically numb, which scares me...but not quite enough for ER, even though i question it...all they will do is press my stomach and give me tylenol. . I am tired of smeling like T!ger b@lm. But it does stop the worst of it in my back. Two nights ago i had a hot pad on my stomach and tiger balm patch on my soine, just to lessen it.

My spine feels like it is compressing again, and jammed crooked. I tried popping it, but it still hurt.

Im scared to find out what is going on. It feels like its my spine, quadratus lumborum, gall bladder, right kidney, colon, and left ovary all conspiring against me. Every day almost, now. Occassionally add week early cramps and indigestion, bloating, and/or nauseatingly slow digestion and that has been my week.

I just want to cry.

If i survive, my semester ends in 6 days. I dont know how much longer i can handle si much pain...

~e