Notes, we have notes again! I still can't appear in the newest updates feed, but we can communicate directly like the sane rational people we try to be!!

Me and my boyfriend argued the whole day by phone... he just kept calling. At one point it sounded like he added another dent or few to the wall that marks all the times he has gotten really mad at me...it's sort if me in wall form. Dented and patched and in need of a better facade; it is the wall by his bed. I have photos of that wall...

I have been really upset because well, my homework is killing me. If i wasn't so much in pain I would say not literally but I am actually wondering at this point. Because not only am I not able to think, and go to bed at 4 am now because my street sounds like an racetrack all day, and I only can hear myself think at night, but because my body actually hurts.

So anyway, i was telling him that, but he was already pissy because of his grandma acting very ready for a good old folks home where they serve you jello for breakfast and you can do word searches and watch game shows and not have to think about bills.

Anyway, I was also mad/upset because my homework (reading 400 pages per week) is making me feel stressed and nauseated which means I can't eat anything so us going out for dinner wasn't an option.

Somewhere in that and my being depressed and him being angry it just was a bad day. It ended with us saying i love you, but it was more in a 'let's please make this ending at near midnight somewhat pleasant so we can both get some sleep' tone'

So V-day is overrated...I always knew that, but since it was on a weekend this year, and we could actually potentially try to do something, i thought why not try...but life and school got in the way.

I'm even afraid to get 50% off candy since they say a lot of holiday candy gets contaminated with wheat in facilities...every time I've tested my "wheat allergy" i really regret it, so I've stopped...i'm allergic and swell nicely when i eat it. So, that ruins a lot of plans in general.

I don't know where this entry is going...

~e