I guess I didn't reply to him the way he wanted...his wall now has another patched hole, the size of a fist...the size of his fist. Afterwards I panicked till my blood pressure dropped and i started trembling and nearly fainted. Hotwater bottles helped a little.

His sister and her family are visiting...i am clearly not considered family.

Today is their last day...I am in his room trying to stop feeling like I want to die while they are all in the other room spending time...

I am also just about swollen shut 'down there' and am trying to brace myself for another urgent/emergency visit. I can only assume it's a yeast infection gone insane...

I don't have much else to say...my world feels painfully small.

~e