My house is infested with clothes moths. And I found a nest under my bed way too late to get it today, so first thing in the morning (as if I can sleep knowing there's thousands of eggs and crawling things in the wall-crack by my bed) I will have to lift and move my bed and get them, first with the vacuum, then the carpet cleaner...because this shit is gross.
Instead of doing homework today (it's Finals), I spent all day cleaning them. I threw out 5 blankets. 3 sweaters, a hoodie, some knit hats, and a couple t-shirts. I washed others, ones that weren't infested, in hot water twice. I washed my rug, I vacuumed my entire room except under my bed, and I changed my sheets, I took a shower, and I still feel itchy and gross.
Finals and getting an A just seems less important than dealing with a really awful moth infestation.
I also got a letter stating I will be cut off SNAP if I don't renew, and was told that Section-8 is sending a letter for inspection soon.
This on top of my SSI review, and my p@ratr@nsit renewal literally all happening within weeks of each other, which is weird and a first to ever happen...and my cat's eye has an ulcer (don't know if i wrote about the urgent $150 visit to the animal hospital on Wednesday :-() , and the tooth i paid $350 for a temporary crown is starting to hurt all night, so I likely just need to get it pulled and not be able to eat (I cannot afford a root canal plus a crown), and my dad is still dying, and my stomach aches from this stress, and my neighbors make noise outside ALL NIGHT LONG. I still don't have home care services, and I have lost exactly 8 lbs since June 1st from all of this.
I have lost track of all else going wrong, because I cannot keep track. I am overwhelmed, and rightfully so. Even non-disabled people couldn't deal with all of this.
How much is a person supposed to take before they break?
I am there.
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