The SS@ isn't letting up. Now they say i really do owe almost $10,000 because of my financial aid, even though it isn't supposed to count. I told the asst manager today that i will kill myself before they get that money from me because it is illegal to count my financial aid against me.

I honest to god mean that. They just took away my education from me, i have nothing left except facing a life in isolation again with no hope of getting to do anything with my life.

I also don't want to live in a country where being disabled and on SS! means it is a crime to attend college and being monitored for each thing you buy and each thing you do and punished for going to college when everyone else gets rewarded. That is not America, that is fascism. And i want to live in America, but am denied citizenship due to being disabled. It means i don't get to enjoy the same freedoms as everyone else.

I am officially quitting college. I will try to get through this semester. I have 3 incompletes, and one from the previous semester. I feel sunk really.

All because the SS@ has been harassing me since summer, otherwise i would be fine. I can't handle anymore.

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