Depressed again...too many people are being jerks. I'm tired. I wonder why my boyfriend stays, I have nothing to offer and sometimes, lately a lot, feel I shouldn't exist. People claim to care about disabled people, but when you dig deeper find they don't really care.

It's been rainy and cold, and stormy, and depressing. I am signed up for an acting class but doubt I will follow through and go. I don't feel it. Me 10 years ago wanted this, me now wonders why I try to only get slammed or judged or ridiculed.

I really don't like most people anymore. They don't like me either.

I'm tired of fighting and trying and having to justify my life to everyone.

~e