I struggle to write because i dont feel like my experiences, perspective, insights, creativity, voice, or me matters all that much.

I think its something that i have always felt and initially believed it was insecurity of leaving school in the 5th grade. But it lingers, despite college.

I value everyone's voice but my own...my own, I feel afraid to speak, terrified of repercussions and that speaking will get me...as isolated as i already am...

~e