My mom has an eye infection and swollen eyes. The eye clinic saw her same day without any issue. She has eyedrops now till it goes away. :-(

I cried myself to sleep lastnight. I still feel crappy. And I want things i've wanted my entire life and will never have. And I cant stop wanting what I want...which is to be part of a family. Thats all I've ever wanted. So many have really good families, and they take them for granted.

I'm struggling most because I know that people here who know me don't care about anything or anyone.

I have a lot I want to do, and i keep forgetting because it really is too much.

I transplanted my violas, and I hope they make it. Some of the baby tomatoes didnt make it. It makes me sad.

I guess tomorrow i will try to till up a small garden space. I'll probably last a half hour.

We have too much to do.

It was 72 degrees today.

I went home to take my mom her eyedrops, and an american cockroach scurried across the doorway outside. I stepped on it trying to kill it, but they are very hard to kill. I hate where i live. So much.

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