What do you do when you are at a point where you can't continue fighting?

Where what you have isn't ebough to sustain you or make you want to stay?

When the two people in your life seem indifferent and emotionally distant just when you need them.

When you are overwhelmed by trying to navigate systems that should be helping and supporting you but arent.

When you wake up at 3 am every night, feeling inadequate and wanting out.

When you have to actively seek out any hint of affection from your boyfriend, because he seems over you and tired of you.

When you dread the upcoming months and don't have the physical or mental strength to endure the next levels of the stupidity you started and absolutely regret (grad school).

When you dont want to die, but you want to never have existed at all.

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