Dealing with my boyfriend's attempt at being the executor of his grandmothers will, and all of the shit that is involved in doing this...makes me want to die destitute...just cremate me, dump my ashes anywhere near my ancestors in the middle of the night so no one knows, and call it a day...

good god they dont make this estate stuff easy.

we are looking at 2 years of uncovering bank accounts, debts, taxes owed, we found bonds and stocks, but who knows what's up with that right now.

Its almost 9:30 pm and we've been going since 4:30 just trying to find out how to pay her water and gas bill, and make sure her house is still insured until it sells...

Also, reverse mortgage lenders are crooked and slimy...he has the right to sell the home to pay off the debts owed, yet the letter from the lender pretty much states the only options (total lie) are to let it foreclose (in which case they auction it and he owes the balance from any inheritance he would get) or to sign it over to the bank...but that's a total fucking lie and both are in their favor as they would make money off the sale in either scenario...so they're getting a letter from this (goddamn expensive) atty soon stating that, and telling them to stop lying...

I feel done, but maybe by the time my grad school nightmare is over, this will be too...2021 is something to look forward to...for fucks sake...

some facts on his grandmother...she was miserable and wanted to die, so its a comfort that she finally did and it only took her 90 years to accomplish...she was an incredible painter - seriously talented, she kept a tortoise for almost 60 years, she loved cats, she loved everything as long as it was blue, she had really beautiful blue eyes, she was staunch democrat and humanitarian and hated "Republican Crap" and was married to a republican for about 70 years so sure knew it and knew she hated it, and her most frequently said word was "crap"...she could say it in every sentence for paragraphs long...

I'm pretty certain she went to Heaven and said "crap!" as soon as she got to the other side...may she rest in peace, finally...as our lives dissolve into the chaos of life she despised so much.

~e