Still feeling pretty alone, I'm beginning to think my bf is some odd form of asexual. It just doesn't occur to him that women want sex or something. I've talked about it with him many times, he uses the excuse that he was a monk...its an obvious lie at this point, after almost 11 years of this.

My bf is reconnecting with old high school friends now the crazy friend who he cut off contact with died last week. He keeps telling me stories, and sharing photos of them, and...it feels like how life should be. I will never know that though, because i had no friends in my life after i got sick at age 11.

A classmate is calling me tomorrow, she has disabilities too and isn't exactly being treated well either. So I have that to look forward to at least...

Also, I filed a complaint on my teacher, we'll see if they actually do anything.

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