I am so close to submitting the pieces of this "paper" as they are and telling my adviser and professor that it is really hard to write a paper when you recognize that you could be dead by next year and this waste of time could be your final moments of time here, wasted to something that is causing such stress and misery.

All of me wants to quit still. I'm pushing myself to do this, and I'm here crying again. I hate this degree.

~e