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Monday, Aug. 09, 2021 - 2:48 am

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My brother requested to follow me on Inst@gr@m two days ago. I barely use it, but it's there. Apparently he blocked me soon after. So...that's my family for you.

I've now deleted all searchable or identifying info on there. Because fuck that.

I've been incredibly sick the past two days. My head is killing me. I feel nauseated. I worry that it's from the mosquito bites.

I went shopping twice in the past few days, and both times were horrific. The first time was for nothing. My bf left his wallet at home, I didn't bring mine because I didn't plan to go shopping. We left with nothing. The entire half hour someone (different people) were screaming or yelling both inside the store and outside the store. I didn't want to be there. For obvious reasons. The Lady inside the store was screaming "don't touch me" repeatedly, but no one was touching her. The couple outside were just yelling at each other. The security guard was escorting people to their vehicles.

The second day went well enough. We were of few people masked, and a guy kept putting things in his personal bag and other things in the cart... obviously shoplifting, but I'm not security, and I just didn't want to be there or be part of any drama. When we got in the check out line a lady in line started singing a weird song with words about the government sterilizing the children and changing their DNA, obviously about the vaccine. She otherwise looked completely normal. I just wanted out of there. Luckily we had our wallets this time and the trip wasn't for nothing.

I'm not sure I can handle people flat out losing it. I didn't want to leave the house when people were fairly rational, even if faking it. This is all a bit much.

I also tried twice to get an outdoor table, but the first time the legs were completely missing, and the second time there's no hardware to put it together. So yeah...people are losing it.

I'm feeling done myself. But am not yet losing it. As far as I can tell.

~e


=*= one day i'll fly away =*=

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